Faith. It's a sensitive—and by nature, an offensive—topic. It's confusing and exciting and terrifying all at once, creating a jumble of often contradictory, non-sensical thoughts.

The best way I know how to clarify my thoughts is to journal privately. But this is something I can no longer keep private. I need to share my path with you, no matter how vulnerable it makes me feel. I know I'm not the only one who often has questions that are taboo, or that feel combative, or 'stupid'.

But why this urge to share? Because I understand the consequences of not believing in God: consequences I know are true. How could I call myself a Christian and not share this with you? This trumps my fear of rejection, or hurt or discomfort I might feel for sharing the news about Jesus.

These topics are hard. The harder they are to discuss openly, the more urgent they are to share. Which is why I’ve made And then Amanda a safe space for expression. For me and for you. This doesn't mean that we can't disagree, or question each other, or show emotion. But we must, however do this in a respectful manner.

Comments that are disrespectful, inflammatory or insulting will be deleted.

If you are not interested in genuinely exploring what it means to be a Christian, then this site is not a good fit for you. I get it, I do (it took me 36 years to become a Christian). But I urge you to read with an open mind and heart. I am here if you need to ask me anything.

Amanda